Posted by: Calmseas (Mike) | June 9, 2019

A Little Birthday Soul-Searching

Dear Mom,

Today is your birthday. Last year, we celebrated with a small cake and a card or two. The highlight of our evening together was your youngest great-grandson blowing out the candles with you, all the way from Texas, through a modern miracle of technology–video chat.

Not long after celebrating your 81st birthday, God summoned you at the time he had appointed from before the creation of earth. It was much too soon for those of us who love and cherish you. But it was His timing for you. I’m sure He looked down from heaven and saw the great pain and suffering that you had been enduring for many months, and which you were so willing to endure for the sake of your husband, your children, grandchildren, and great-grandchildren. And he said, “Enough!”

So you were gently taken on angels’ wings to your new, eternal home—a place where there is no more pain, no more suffering, no more struggles, no more fears, no more tears. And you rest now in the arms of your loving Savior where someday we, your family, will also rest and rejoice in the work of our Lord and commune with you once again.

Mom, I did not know how deep human grief and loss could be before we lost you that night. I wonder everyday how things might have been different, how I might have been able to change this outcome. “What ifs” haunt my soul. But I know that God’s will and work always prevail, and “what was” is “what was destined” to be.

Mom, on the night you passed to your new life, Venus shone as brightly as I’ve ever see it in the clear summer sky. I took it as a sign from God that all was OK and as it should be. It was a small comfort to me as I drove those few short miles to do the hardest thing that I’ve ever done in my life: break the news to Dad that you where no longer here with us.

Mom, I love you more than I could ever adequately express in a few feeble words . But I believe you are at peace and at rest today in a land far away, awaiting our arrival, where our great reunion will be filled with love, and hugs, and celebration, and joy, all far exceeding our understanding today and our meager attempts to convey with pen and paper.

Rest in peace, Mom. I love you. Until we see you again.


Your Son, Mike

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